A year of lurking this might be it

[born2win]

Oh man, long story short, i fucked up my life financially and emotionally. I cant believe I even lasted a year. But this might be it, on Saturday, ill be alone from my gf, a perfect excuse for her and a solid solo night for me.

Ill begin fasting on Friday and as she leaves on Saturday Ill go to my relative and mention to her that im there. After which, Ill head to a hotel and CTB via 35gms of SN i.e. stat method.

I dont know what to feel anymore or think on their behalf. Ive went on and on predicting previous events expecting the result running on my mind alas' the turn-out was different.
Hopefully my passing does not induce lasting depression on the people who care for me.

My only contention is that on Aug 19, it will be her birthday and yet this weekend is the perfect opportunity for me. Hassle!

 

[corgiee]

im sorry that life has pushed u to this point. i wish u a peaceful journey! also, lurkers unite

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish you all the best with your plan! I hope you find peace and have a pleasant journey! Good luck!

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope when the time is right for you to leave you find the freedom you search for, good luck.

 

[SVEN]

Very best wishes in finding rest from all this turmoil. Go well, sleep deep.

 

[born2win]

Thank you everyone!

 

[dialogos]

Sad. Wish we could have gone together but I can only CTB by September since my mom needs caretaking till my siblings come home. Take care