You all warned me not to CTB because of my kids but after new evidence surfaced in my rape case I really just need to know a peaceful way to go. Attached is my suicide letter to those that think they deserve it. If you think you know me please just don't.
wait.what
no really, what?
- Aug 14, 2020
- 1,000
I see you, cherylblossom. My own circumstances are superficially different, but I do understand what it's like to suffer needless torment in a world where there is, and can be, no justice.
When and if I ctb, it will probably be because of similar reasons. When you've basically been treated like an inanimate object that can scream, you may never feel like a real person ever again. You just kind of walk around like a corpse that hasn't fallen over yet.
I don't think that someone is utterly doomed to a life of emptiness and helpless rage because of a sexual assault, but if someone decides they want to survive, they are likely to need to spend some years rebuilding their personality and finding new reasons to live. It can be done, but I think it takes a special kind of gall to demand that of someone. If somebody's house burns down, you don't guilt-trip them into building a new house on the site, with no help except advice from professionals they don't really know and who charge high fees. If an assaulted person freely chooses recovery, that's all to the good. If not, don't destroy what little agency over their own bodies they still possess. I guarantee it will not make them feel better
Clear skies, friend. I hope you find peace.
When and if I ctb, it will probably be because of similar reasons. When you've basically been treated like an inanimate object that can scream, you may never feel like a real person ever again. You just kind of walk around like a corpse that hasn't fallen over yet.
I don't think that someone is utterly doomed to a life of emptiness and helpless rage because of a sexual assault, but if someone decides they want to survive, they are likely to need to spend some years rebuilding their personality and finding new reasons to live. It can be done, but I think it takes a special kind of gall to demand that of someone. If somebody's house burns down, you don't guilt-trip them into building a new house on the site, with no help except advice from professionals they don't really know and who charge high fees. If an assaulted person freely chooses recovery, that's all to the good. If not, don't destroy what little agency over their own bodies they still possess. I guarantee it will not make them feel better
Clear skies, friend. I hope you find peace.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 45,008
I'm sorry that you have suffered so unbearably in life. This life is just so cruel and unfair, and after all, only you know what it is best for yourself as it is your life and your decision. Other people do not know what it is like to live your life. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do, I hope that you find relief from your pain.
I do wish there was a way for you to heal but I can see how you thought this out a lot and I do see that you need to find peace however you can. I hope you can find peace.
Apathy79
Elementalist
- Oct 13, 2019
- 876
Are you sure you want those names out in public on here? There's probably enough there to identify you.
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