destinationlosangel
Experienced
- Feb 16, 2024
- 232
I've been meaning to write this for a while now. And here I am now doing this to honour the passing of someone very important to me. A year ago, if you'd told me that this is how my life would be, I would have told you to GTFO. But alas, that is life.
Moonymoon as she went by here, was my best friend and like my own big sister. As is the case with most of us here who end up becoming friends, it was the talking about the lows in our lives that we bonded over. In our case, it was health issues and dysfunctional families.
One of the things as we all would know is how difficult it can be talking about topics such as these with our normie friends and families. And so we ended up being each others families/siblings. We would talk late into the night almost everyday. We would talk about art, movies, music and travel destinations and the meaning of life, and death. We laughed together and also cried together. Moony was incredibly kind and had the heart and patience of a saint. Inspite of her illnesses that caused her a lot of pain, she was always an extremely positive person.
Moony was a talented artist and had aspirations to do much in life. She cared so much for people and I know that if life had been good for her, she would have definitely become a humanitarian in some capacity.
While I am dealing with my own health issues and I'd feel super low every now and then, she was extremely considerate, understanding and caring. For the first time in my life, I felt like I had an actual big sister who cared for me. I know that she is still my sister, just that she's in heaven. I miss her so bad and sometimes it gets so hard and emotional for me. I still cannot believe that she's gone. There's a part of me that wishes that her name pops up every time my phone's ringing. Every time I think about her not being here with me, my chest starts heaving a little bit.
Inspite of her life being quite negative due to health and family issues, she always tried to be happy and positive and she always talked about leaving with a 'pure heart'. She told me how forgiveness was what we had to do to everyone had wronged us. She was a genuinely good person and we always talked about the various characters here and she truly truly cared for a lot of us on this forum. Special shout outs to Tears in the rain, Soulkitty and there's a bunch of other usernames too. I don't remember all the usernames. She loved all of you guys!! Thank you to everyone on this forum, the mods, the members, for all the kindness and love and care. Also shout outs to Avaruus and AlcoholicsCalculus. (They're reading this from heaven)
And also because I know Moonymoon would always lurk on the forum, she is probably seeing this post from heaven. I feel less afraid to ctb now and I know that there's gonna be someone in heaven who'd welcome me. I cannot type more. I am in tears.
I want to share one of her favourite songs here. And I am also sharing this other song cuz she loved Chris Cornell. The lyrics are quite fitting. Asking God to show us how to live. God help us all.
I love u so much Moonymoon! Miss you so much!
Moonymoon as she went by here, was my best friend and like my own big sister. As is the case with most of us here who end up becoming friends, it was the talking about the lows in our lives that we bonded over. In our case, it was health issues and dysfunctional families.
One of the things as we all would know is how difficult it can be talking about topics such as these with our normie friends and families. And so we ended up being each others families/siblings. We would talk late into the night almost everyday. We would talk about art, movies, music and travel destinations and the meaning of life, and death. We laughed together and also cried together. Moony was incredibly kind and had the heart and patience of a saint. Inspite of her illnesses that caused her a lot of pain, she was always an extremely positive person.
Moony was a talented artist and had aspirations to do much in life. She cared so much for people and I know that if life had been good for her, she would have definitely become a humanitarian in some capacity.
While I am dealing with my own health issues and I'd feel super low every now and then, she was extremely considerate, understanding and caring. For the first time in my life, I felt like I had an actual big sister who cared for me. I know that she is still my sister, just that she's in heaven. I miss her so bad and sometimes it gets so hard and emotional for me. I still cannot believe that she's gone. There's a part of me that wishes that her name pops up every time my phone's ringing. Every time I think about her not being here with me, my chest starts heaving a little bit.
Inspite of her life being quite negative due to health and family issues, she always tried to be happy and positive and she always talked about leaving with a 'pure heart'. She told me how forgiveness was what we had to do to everyone had wronged us. She was a genuinely good person and we always talked about the various characters here and she truly truly cared for a lot of us on this forum. Special shout outs to Tears in the rain, Soulkitty and there's a bunch of other usernames too. I don't remember all the usernames. She loved all of you guys!! Thank you to everyone on this forum, the mods, the members, for all the kindness and love and care. Also shout outs to Avaruus and AlcoholicsCalculus. (They're reading this from heaven)
And also because I know Moonymoon would always lurk on the forum, she is probably seeing this post from heaven. I feel less afraid to ctb now and I know that there's gonna be someone in heaven who'd welcome me. I cannot type more. I am in tears.
I want to share one of her favourite songs here. And I am also sharing this other song cuz she loved Chris Cornell. The lyrics are quite fitting. Asking God to show us how to live. God help us all.
I love u so much Moonymoon! Miss you so much!
It's not weird at all, I can relate to it as well
