Story A tiny light in all the darkness

[Soontobegoner]

I have been lurking since ages and joined last year.

Was all set to have it done.... Bought my SN.

Then in March my brother took me to psychiatrist, again.

I always been Spritual, in fact my only reason to be gone is that I cannot bear the chaos world has and how unsuitable I am in this world. I just don't fit.... Tried many time and failed.

Then this last time when I came out, something changed. I could feel something changed in me Spritually... Energies more like. I wouldn't bore you guys with what I felt and the journey but fog started clearing.

In my case I realized, i dont mind dying and my only reason to be gone is how unfit I am in this world and recently things started clearing. With new hope, I am finding new paths. Currently my goal is to learn as much as I can vedicastrology, so far what I have learnt, my chart does say so I am prone to suicide because of how directionless I feel always.

Now my only hope is to find more answer and direction by following this way and if successful I would wish to help others who are feeling directionless and hopeless.

Just wanted to share it with you guys. In darkest of time, this forum gave me some comfort and way to leave this world on my own terms.

I hope these words would help others, however small it may be.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm pleased to hear you found a path through. I hope it works out for you.

 

[Soontobegoner]

I'm pleased to hear you found a path through. I hope it works out for you.

Do you think my assertion is right in thinking that we are looking a way out because we have no other way to turn to

 

[divinemistress36]

I hope you can help others out of the darkness <3

 

[Soontobegoner]

I hope you can help others out of the darkness <3

This is what I had been thinking... This is the goal I am keeping in mind. I am not really out of the woods as I am still learning but the more I am learning and more it makes sense. Let's hope I would answer for me as well as for others

 

[divinemistress36]

This is what I had been thinking... This is the goal I am keeping in mind. I am not really out of the woods as I am still learning but the more I am learning and more it makes sense. Let's hope I would answer for me as well as for others

You could be going through a dark night of the soul

 

[Soontobegoner]

You could be going through a dark night of the soul

I think so as well... This time my experience is nearing toward chakras

 

[SVEN]

Genuinely pleased for you if, in any way, you are able to find some solace in or pathway through life. As you know this isn't a pro suicide group, just a pro choice one. Please don't let the occasional dark days or setbacks get you down too much.
My best wishes in continued better thoughts.

 

[Soontobegoner]

Genuinely pleased for you if, in any way, you are able to find some solace in or pathway through life. As you know this isn't a pro suicide group, just a pro choice one. Please don't let the occasional dark days or setbacks get you down too much.
My best wishes in continued better thoughts.

Thank you so much :). In those dark days this forum did give me an outlet to share the darkest thoughts and moreover giving comfort that I am not the only one.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Do you think my assertion is right in thinking that we are looking a way out because we have no other way to turn to

For some people, definitely. Maybe some of us can't see all the paths too. I think we can become overwhelmed and blinkered in life.

For me though, it's not that multiple paths aren't still open to me. They are. It's just that they all lead to mountains! And, I'm sick of climbing. I don't think there's anything earthly or spiritual that will enable me to fly over either!

No offense to you though. I'm genuinely pleased for people when they find a light to follow.

I did have that when I was younger and it did well- it got me through to my mid 40's but, it's just fading now. I do truly hope this is the way forward for you (and others) though. (Mine wasn't a spiritual path. Mine was a vocation- if you like- following a creative job.)

 

[destinationlosangel]

Hey mate. Very happy to read this and heres hoping this turns everything around for you.

 

[Soontobegoner]

Hey mate. Very happy to read this and heres hoping this turns everything around for you.

Thank you brother, I hope we all find a way to relieve us from the pain we are experiencing. One way or the another :).... How have you been doing?

 

[destinationlosangel]

Thank you brother, I hope we all find a way to relieve us from the pain we are experiencing. One way or the another :).... How have you been doing?

Got used to the misery i guess :)

Yes man anything that helps even the slightest bit. I'm so happy for u mate. I wish u all the best with this new endeavour <3