Venting A safe place.

[Anxieyote]

I'm feeling very sad and scared at the current moment, trying to hold back tears as I type this. I'm not doing well tonight, and I'd like to make this thread as a place where I can go to feel safe when the evening comes (it is currently 6:30pm where I live). My emotions are running very high at the moment, and I know they are going to intensify a lot in the next few hours.

Something did happen earlier today that was a catalyst for how I'm feeling at the moment, but I'm not ready to talk about it yet. It would mean a lot to me if I could make this thread and use it as a safe place to vent or talk about anything that comes to mind. I always like to contribute something when I post on the forums; some insight or interesting thought that may spark good discussions, but tonight I'm just sad. Sometimes I do get voices when I am really upset. I'm not sure if that will happen tonight, but if it does, I hope you can understand.

 

[outrider567]

I'm feeling very sad and scared at the current moment, trying to hold back tears as I type this. I'm not doing well tonight, and I'd like to make this thread as a place where I can go to feel safe when the evening comes (it is currently 6:30pm where I live). My emotions are running very high at the moment, and I know they are going to intensify a lot in the next few hours.

Something did happen earlier today that was a catalyst for how I'm feeling at the moment, but I'm not ready to talk about it yet. It would mean a lot to me if I could make this thread and use it as a safe place to vent or talk about anything that comes to mind. I always like to contribute something when I post on the forums; some insight or interesting thought that may spark good discussions, but tonight I'm just sad. Sometimes I do get voices when I am really upset. I'm not sure if that will happen tonight, but if it does, I hope you can understand.

Anything you want to talk about,this is the thread to do it on

 

[Anxieyote]

Do you want to say hello?
"I don't know, they might not get it."
Everyone on SaSu has been my friend when I've talked to them. It's ok to come out. And I also told them what's been going on, so they know what's up. I made a thread in advance, so it's safe to talk to me. Do you want me to introduce you first?
"Yes I think so."
Her name is Luka. She comes when I'm feeling emotionally overwhelmed. She is a good presence.
She is my friend. One of my best friends.
One thing I want to remind you of is that even when people don't reply, they have read this thread. Do you know how you feel after you read certain threads and wish that you could help? That is how they feel too. They wish that they could help, but don't know how.

 

[Z-bar]

I'm always here for a chat or even just to vent to. Can't say I know what you're going through exactly but hit me up I'll answer no matter I talk to you or luka.

this is a safe haven . You are welcome.

 

[Anxieyote]

I am coming back to this thread, just as I said I would. This is a safe place, and I thank all of you for reassuring me of that. I went through a tough time today

 

[Judy Garland]

I'm sorry you had a rough day. I too have rough days, throughout the days I cry as I am haunted by the past.

 

[rationaltake]

You and Luka have amazing strategies for helping yourself. I always read your posts with interest. Be safe.

 

[waitingforrest]

Hey Luka! It's been a while.
Sorry that you are going through tough times, that's sweet of Luka to support you through this.
It's okay to vent or say whatever you both need.
I wish you both a safe night.

 

[Anxieyote]

"Still not. Still not"
What are you saying?
"Not going away. It's not going away."
Calm down.
"It's not going away I'm sorry"
One two three four five six one two three four five six one two three four five six
"We have to go. We have to go"
Go where
"Back to hospital please"
No we aren't. They can't help.
"I don't know what to do I can't breathe"
It's ok
"Not ok"
I don't know what to do either. I don't know what to say to help.
"Which is why need hospital some outside help. Please"
No. We aren't doing that.
"No no no no no no"
Stop it. Please just stop
"There's no other options. I'm sorry"
What's going to happen then? You go to the hospital. And then what?
"I don't know."
You go back to being where you're at.
"I know."
And you're not happy again. And you wait for another meltdown.
"I know"
Do you want me to help you?
"I know what you mean by that, and I don't know"
I can help if you want me to.
"I don't know"
You're hurting so much.
"I don't want my life to stop"
You can rest finally.
"There has to be something else we can do. Something else we can do"
"Please don't look at me like that. Please stop please"
"I know"

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that life has been cruel. Of course you can share as many of your thoughts as you would like here. I wish you relief from your suffering.

 

[Angi]

Just like you say, I would love to be able to help you. I know this is not enough, but still, please be aware that we are here and reading and thinking of you.

 

[rationaltake]

I hope you're making it through.

 

[DreamSurfer]

Hello, I hope that you are making it through the week alright and that the week has treated you better!