A poem I wrote last month

[Beautiful_Disgrace]

So, my suicidal thoughts began when I was forced to live in my car for a few weeks on my 28th birthday. And even at the height of my depression, I was still trying to motivate myself to keep going for my son. Weird thing is, I don't even remember adding the last part. Anyways, I couldn't share this with anyone, so I figured I would share with you guys.


The sun comes up

Time to start my day

I watch the clouds as I slowly waste away

Dreaming for the chance to have a break

It's so hard to be awake

As my soul begins to disintegrate,

My heart continues to fill with hate

Smiling faces, staring down at me

Grinning all the while, their spirits free

"Stay positive!" They say.

As I try to keep dark urges at bay

I don't belong here

That much is clear

I'm invisible, a shadow to ignore

Until someone sees my body wash ashore

The sun sets, it's time for bed

The darkness lingers on in my head

As I hope, I wish, oh god I pray

That tomorrow will never be another day



Keep on pushing

Keep on breathing

Keep on dreaming



Keep on moving

Keep on trying

Keep on living