I don't have a reason to do it. No trauma. Good family. Good childhood. I don't look or act like someone who will eventually die at their own hands. No
One takes me seriously because I don't have a reason.
I feel pathetic whining about how lonely I am. How I don't have any chance of a future. How I want to ruin myself. I'm so pathetic I'm yearning for a girl who I was friends with when I was 12. She's just had a baby and I hate it. We haven't even talked in 7 years. I'm happy for her, I'm happy she seems to have gotten better but what about me?
It's pathetic.
I feel like a child or a caged animal. Like an orca held in captivity alone. An animal that is made to be social and be in the open. Not stuck alone in a tiny tank.
I could be so so good if I had a chance. I yearn for more. I will never have more.
One takes me seriously because I don't have a reason.
I feel pathetic whining about how lonely I am. How I don't have any chance of a future. How I want to ruin myself. I'm so pathetic I'm yearning for a girl who I was friends with when I was 12. She's just had a baby and I hate it. We haven't even talked in 7 years. I'm happy for her, I'm happy she seems to have gotten better but what about me?
It's pathetic.
I feel like a child or a caged animal. Like an orca held in captivity alone. An animal that is made to be social and be in the open. Not stuck alone in a tiny tank.
I could be so so good if I had a chance. I yearn for more. I will never have more.
