A note to all the suicidals

[TydalWave]

I am speaking on behalf of the suicidals

those we have lost, and those we will lose.


We deserve love in our dying moments.

We deserve someone by our side.

We deserve a hand to hold as we leave this world (if we want it)


And we will never have the numbers to speak up for ourselves.

That's just how the game of life is.


This message will never go viral.

News flash, nobody fucking cares

It doesn't help you survive.


Because it's selfish to leave.

This unspoken pact

This contract we signed, at birth

And cannot remember

It's etched in the fabric of the universe

We cannot leave.


But your free will is cognitive dissonance.

My free will is my choice, my body, my Life.


Your delusion keeps you moving forward.

My delusion is being brutally self-aware.


Your eyes are on your feet, and my eyes are on the skies.

And I am tired of being in disguise.

Love is love is love.


And I have loved with every ounce of my being.

I've loved the worst in people

And just because I can't love myself

Doesn't mean I don't deserve love as I leave.


You'd think a suicide forum would be a place of resentment.

But it had more love than I could fathom.

Maybe we love too much.

Maybe love is poison.

I wish it was.

 

[90starve]

this is beautifully written :)

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Very well written!!

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I agree with the sentiment wholeheartedly, but I'd add that, IMO, even more so deserving of love when we leave, we are deserving of peace.