Venting a new arc

[5karlet]

i really wanna get this of my chest and i have a person i usually talk to about stuff but i don't want them to know about this. basically my mom used to have me go next door and get some pills and i was doing it for a couple months and then i got curious and wanted to see what it was so i looked it up on pill finder and zooey mama it was hydrocodone the 10mg. i was like oh cool whatever then one day my grandma asked grab her a pill bottle and it said it was oxy and for some reason that's what got me started. later on during that same day i looked for the pill bottle and found it and decided to grab one (also 10mg) i waited a night where i knew no one would disturb me and took it. one of the best highs i feel like you could experience but it's never the same after the first time. you always gotta take more. then more. that was back i february this year and all the way up until a week ago ive been pocketing their pills it sounds terrible and i know it is but shi i did it anyway. then i took like 8 from my mom and obviously she found out (no clue how they didn't before) and confronted me, there was no point in lying about it so i told her the truth. she started crying talking about how hurt she is and blah blah and it's just like omg it's not that deep. i'd rather have her be mad than crying. she was talking about i coulda od'd and stuff but little did she know i was lowkey a vet at that point 20mg didn't even do anything i needed atleast 30mg to feel something so now im living with me dad and for some reason she wants me to come back in a few weeks and i lowkey don't want to i actually get fed here and have a nice family here. i shoulda took my xbox before i left.

 

[timf]

In case you weren't aware, there is an effect called habituation with narcotics that means (as you have discovered) that you have to take more and more to get the same effect. However, what constitutes a lethal level does not change. As a result, over time one begins creeping closer and closer to a dosage that can kill you.

If you can discontinue using or being in an environment you you are tempted to use, it would be to your benefit.

 

[5karlet]

In case you weren't aware, there is an effect called habituation with narcotics that means (as you have discovered) that you have to take more and more to get the same effect. However, what constitutes a lethal level does not change. As a result, over time one begins creeping closer and closer to a dosage that can kill you.

If you can discontinue using or being in an environment you you are tempted to use, it would be to your benefit.

sorta had to leave so i can't take em anymore but thanks for the tips