Busticket
Student
- May 18, 2021
- 185
Ever since I started masturbating on that fateful day 16 years ago in 2005 when I was 12, All I wanted was to be with one of you and have physical intimacy with one of you.
But I guess I am just not good looking enough for you.
I am sick and tired of chasing you and trying to make you like me and want to be with me.
I am sick and tired of sending you messages on dating apps only to be humiliated by being ignored and ghosted by you.
I am never going to put any effort into trying to be with one of you again or trying to make one of you like me.
I am also going to stop masturbating so that I will not desire you physically.
And you know?
I even thought of killing myself because of that.
Because I never had one of you as a gf.
But you know what?
I realized that my life is more important than any of you.
So not only am I not going to kill myself but I am going to go to the gym and exercise 6 days a week and eat healthy so that i'll live to a 100.
I will be lonely and without ever being with one of you until the day I die.
So be it.
But I guess I am just not good looking enough for you.
I am sick and tired of chasing you and trying to make you like me and want to be with me.
I am sick and tired of sending you messages on dating apps only to be humiliated by being ignored and ghosted by you.
I am never going to put any effort into trying to be with one of you again or trying to make one of you like me.
I am also going to stop masturbating so that I will not desire you physically.
And you know?
I even thought of killing myself because of that.
Because I never had one of you as a gf.
But you know what?
I realized that my life is more important than any of you.
So not only am I not going to kill myself but I am going to go to the gym and exercise 6 days a week and eat healthy so that i'll live to a 100.
I will be lonely and without ever being with one of you until the day I die.
So be it.