enigmática saudade

enigmática saudade

Ô Mort, vieux capitaine, il est temps!
Jun 27, 2019
28
Life is full of regrets. Futile regrets.
In the middle of countless sleepless nights, I tortured my distorted brain with regrets. Tears in my eyes dissolved into the glistening snowflakes. Snowflakes in the desperate darkness melted in the glistening moonlight. Insurmountable pain was an unquiet stream that flowed abruptly through my veins. Inside the pain, a subtle hue of translucent white existed like the snow and the moon. This was the time when I reminisce about your beauty and melancholy.
I remember when I first met you. You stared at me with your beautiful dark eyes full of innocence. Unlike other people of your age, your eyes possessed the nature of the clearest purity.
I had never discovered this kind of purity before. I also remember the slight somber tone inside your seemingly innocent glance. The inexplicable melancholy was the rhythm that concealed deeply inside your heart. Your straight dark hair was like the lonely night when I was alone with my own solitude. The night could gradually transform into a sweet poem. A poem that was full of the saddest sweetness of an adolescent's precocious and immature ruminations.
In the dark night, I agonized over the fact that you would probably disappear forever in my life. My tears sang a speechless song about my own flaws, weakness, and absurdity. My tears dropped into the tranquil snow. My tears flew through the tender moon. The vague silhouette of my tears, the snowflakes, and the moonlight mingled with each other. The silhouette was the reflection of your little hands - your hands are as small as mine - playing on the piano in the absolute silence. The silhouette was your smile. The silhouette was the pain in my heart that dived into an abyss. An abyss of intangible darkness.
Days and nights. Days and nights are both times of endless torture for me. Yet, nights possess the enigmatic and inescapable power of beautiful melancholy.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: Orin, SinisterKid, Temporarilyabsurd and 2 others
L

LonelyLight

Warlock
May 31, 2019
779
You have a beautiful way with words
 
  • Like
Reactions: sólstafir
enigmática saudade

enigmática saudade

Ô Mort, vieux capitaine, il est temps!
Jun 27, 2019
28
I'm a new member here.
And I'm not good with social situations.
 
  • Like
Reactions: sólstafir
enigmática saudade

enigmática saudade

Ô Mort, vieux capitaine, il est temps!
Jun 27, 2019
28
I always feel guilty for what I did to my friend
 
enigmática saudade

enigmática saudade

Ô Mort, vieux capitaine, il est temps!
Jun 27, 2019
28
I know but I just can't stop feeling bad about myself. I've made really huge mistakes.
I guess borderline personality disorder had to do with some of my behaviors.
 
Last edited:

Similar threads

AnderDethsky
Replies
3
Views
368
Suicide Discussion
ms_beaverhousen
ms_beaverhousen
BasilThePlant
Replies
9
Views
313
Offtopic
EvisceratedJester
EvisceratedJester
Zecko
Replies
7
Views
661
Suicide Discussion
aloicious
A
thesquigglyline
Replies
10
Views
602
Offtopic
Asleepatlast
A
Brokensoulwalking
Replies
14
Views
1K
Suicide Discussion
Unicorn_mo7
U