Venting "a danger to yourself or others"🤮

[Sleepycat]

So....I thought most states were done holding people against their will... Shows what I know. I had an episode at work, was seen, it's been bad the last three days. My whole face is a big bruise(though no swelling or color, but I can feel it), I've now scratches on my neck, hands and arms, plus various bruises on the arm and leg. Yeah fun times.

I was removed from site expecting my last check and my shit and a walk to the gate. What I got was 3 house of different people trying to talk to me through crying, shaking, rocking, and more hand scratching. End up being told to do a doctor's appointment "fit for duty" which will come back negative, and then get my stuff and my check. Then, apparently if I didn't have anyone to pick me up they'd have called the cops and held me up to 3 days, "danger to yourself or others" what a crock. To me it would make shit worse. I already told these.. people I'm to much a useless coward to even off myself properly and I'm not a significant danger to anything. I'm 35. Fuck off with the babysitting.
Luckily I was able to ask lady I used to go to church with to avoid being forcibly detained. I'm grateful but she also stayed at my house for 3 hours when I just wanted to crawl into bed. I have called my family but bother them often enough with this shit and they rarely come to see me over an hour away anyway, which is fine, I don't mind cuz I know I'm a drain.

What gets me is that authories think forced detainment help mental states. Like yeah I'm not gonna be more tempted to cause impulsive harm being held in a place I can't get out of...that won't cause a panic attack or anything and make things even worse. Yeah good thinking... Now they keep pushing mental health help and the suicide prevention hotline, fucking jokes. I'm glad if it works for you, I've never met one that did. I'll go to the one appointment they
want me to so I can come get my stuff and my last check. I don't know why I can't just sign a release of liability paper and be done.

I'm tired. I hate waking up. Fucking cats do more to keep me here than anyone/thing else. I really only had this job to try to pay some shit off. Jokes on me.
I just wanna sell my house at this point so even if I can't die I can still disappear. Just live out my car with the fur creatures. No issues... Except heat but I'm sure we could figure something out..
Tired. Not even reading my stories help calm my brain at this point.
No point here just venting/story of my day. Been placed in the suicide ward long ass time ago. I'll pass. I'd call my worse enemy if I had too but you aren't locking me up again. Hell maybe I'd get the courage then. I'm sure I'd be able to find something I could use. Haha maybe I can sleep now... Though idk. Thanks for listening I guess..

 

[FuneralCry]

I hate how we exist in this world where suicidal people are cruelly punished, of course such a thing would only lead to more suffering. Psych wards really sound like horrific prisons to me.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry what you have to go through. It's so inhumane. I hope you find peace! I wish you all the best!

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

What a nightmare, Iet me tell you the story I'm writing based on real life events so you can see that you are not alone.

Let me tell you a story and It's my book that I'm currently writing and I hope it can make you feel a bit better.

It starts with I don't hide behind a computer or a phone, cowards are those who behind a computer and stalk me…. This guy who is a danger to others wouldn't dare say it to me unless it's his "mupengo" barking for him.

Nowander he called her "mupengo" because she is always barking for him and yet calling him a nice guy. Hahaha … If he is so happy and then why does he had to bother me such an unhappy person and update me with all these stories and if I lack substance then why reach my workplace and other people connected to me. Have you heard of a "beg a friend", making collages using other people's pictures is what he does best… does Brown know that he used to call him "chemhino", the so called bestie "avatar", Mubare "shato", Sheila "chimurume", Momo "bveni" yeah he is a danger to others (they just don't know that's why)

If "beg a friend" was to come to me then I would have some respect for him because even asked all he did was deny but rather ask to meet for tea. If I was so bad then why did he deny to me??? Because he is coward, who hides behind a "mupengo" as he called her.

I'm writing my own ending and I'm not going to be his "supply" because he only get recognition if he is talking about me. Always desperate for fame since "Jeremy Kylie" even lie detector test could expose him as a pathological liar.

Iam the story

 

[Readytogo246]

What a tragedy! You don't deserve this. I'm glad you got out and hope it stays that way.

 

[soonatpeace777888]

I like how they conflate the two things. Wanting to end your own pain is in the same category as murder? Fuck off.

 

[chloramine]

I understand if someone is a danger to others because it's not fair to let a third party get hurt. Even then I wish it was more humane. Taking away someone's autonomy and rights because of what they might do to themselves is just. Wrong. Going against people's consent is traumatic. I don't understand why they think it's best- I could understand "we don't agree with this, but there are no better options". I don't agree with it, but I can understand it.

 

[Wyldfyre4948]

I made the mistake of telling a doctor about my thoughts and got a 3 day stay in the hospital for it. My choice was to sign a voluntary admission or I would be admitted involuntarily. The amount of compassion the world has for suicidal people is horrendous. If you aren't a danger to anyone else then you should be left to do what you want.

It makes no sense that a person can stockpile guns and ammo without anyone batting an eye, but if you want to kill yourself then you have a mental defect. Mental healthcare in this world is a joke.