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Kadri.eser
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- Feb 4, 2023
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I have spoken to 988 and Samaritans many times since I am completely alone in the world, and have constant abuse hurled in my direction. They are completely heartless and refuse to understand what I tell them about my life. Or that the world caused the circumstances I have endured. When I state that I want to kill myself, they inform me that I am just having negative emotions. Then they proclaim that I just have to do coping skills and all will be well. I have to endure listening to their boilerplate pre-conceived hypothesis which have no merit in the real world. I almost plead with them to understand that the circumstances and environment of my life make living hell and a continuous torture. They just discard that and try to force their ideology on me. So, I end up feeling more gaslit and insignificant than before. They are trying to convince everyone that the conditions of their existence have no credence on their desire to live or die. They inform me that it's only my negative, ruminating emotions that are the problem, and that can be solved by waking around the block a couple times a week. So, the realities of my life, like loosing everyone valuable to me, living in deprivation, and having my civil and human rights violated at every turn has no impact whatsoever on determining the quality of my life and if I choose to continue living it. Being told what I think and feel, and what I should think, feel and do is like being completely annihilated as a human being while having my body be under their complete control to do with as they wish. I have no autonomy or value as per the system I live under. I cannot even express my thoughts without fear of involuntary incarceration in a psychiatric facility, which btw, has been condemned by the United Nations. It's a horrible experience being alive on this planet of cruelty and injustice. And then they want to prohibit you from leaving. What is the capacity for their tyranny? I think it's limitless. Human history tell the same story. The people in power boss everyone else around and use their lives to gratify themselves.