Story 5 years on SaSu, my recovery and goodbye

[Anon7075]

In an unlikely twist of events i managed to hold on for far longer than i thought i would. Endurance, patience, commitment and succesfully coping with severe mental pain has led me to this moment. It's astonishing how even my quite severe case that consists of 5 diagnosed mental illnesses, 5+ suicide attempts and over 10 years of depression is actually possible to survive let alone make a significant recovery. Even a single year in right circumstances can provide significant recovery and relief. Although i still suffer from mental illness it's actually reached a point where i can cope without self harm, suicide or drowning myself in alcohol. Psychiatric hospitals hold a very bad reputation and for a good reason, but if there wasn't an intervention when i tried killing myself i wouldn't be here today, i would be 6 feet under. Another psychiatric hospitalization happened in October, this time voluntary, has hooked me up with a good psychiatrist and a complex medical regiment of 4 different medications that actually work. Yes, there is a lot of luck involved but patience and endurance is what helped me survive. Perhaps im entitled to say these things but it seems i was given a second chance by god, universe or a higher being. Recovery is very hard but i believe this proves it's possible. Before i say goodbye to this website i can say some parting words. Life is like a river, when we are in an inescapable situation let the stream take you to a place where there are other alternatives to suicide. In my case this stream drowned me for many years and spat me out like a dead body on some shore far, far away where i managed to find some semblance of a normal life. I am not here to tell you if you should give up or not, but at least give it a shot, it might open a new path where you find alternatives to suicide. This is it. I never say goodbye because i believe we will meet in the future or in another lifetime so goodbyes are just temporary words, but nevertheless i will say a symbolic goodbye to this website and to the people on this forum which have been wronged by life many times but i still believe they have a chance to make some kind of future for themselves and that some hope will come because a world without hope doesn't exist. A body can give up, a soul can never give up. Hope is universal, cemented into this universe of endless possibilities. I wish you all a happy future and perhaps we will meet again in better circumstances. From yours truly, Anon7075.

 

[cme-dme]

Best of luck out there ^_^

 

[darksouls]

good luck, I wish you the best

 

[kiwimochii]

That was beautifully worded. I never had the pleasure of interacting with you but you sound like a kind person, I'm happy you found your peace and the help you needed, genuinely. I hope life will be kind to you moving forwards too. Take care and best wishes

 

[closetoyou]

godspeed dude, proud of you