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unwilling_lich
emo mcgee
- Jan 1, 2024
- 20
i just spent like last 4 days in my room, ignoring everyone, not eating, trying and failing over and over to hang myself/tourniquet myself. my roommates say theyre worried and that they love me, but i also heard them talking shit so idk. my best friend is coming by tomorrow night and idk if i can tell her whats been going on, everyone i know is going thru so much actual shit, tf am i gonna say? im sad? comfort me in my rent free room while so many of our friends dont even have rooms of their own?
i was supposed to wait til after a trip with a friend in september so i don't abandon her, but i cant wait any longer. not that it matters cuz i just keep failing, just like all my other attempts over my life.
idk who to talk to otherwise. i need to talk to someone who actually knows me, but so many of my friends are younger than me now, it feels creepy af to be all help me to ppl in their early and mid 20s when im gonna be 30 next year.
i cant die but i cant live either
i was supposed to wait til after a trip with a friend in september so i don't abandon her, but i cant wait any longer. not that it matters cuz i just keep failing, just like all my other attempts over my life.
idk who to talk to otherwise. i need to talk to someone who actually knows me, but so many of my friends are younger than me now, it feels creepy af to be all help me to ppl in their early and mid 20s when im gonna be 30 next year.
i cant die but i cant live either