savoytruffle
Student
- Mar 31, 2022
- 197
I'm almost 22 and I'm still living with my mother and brother. I'm an absolute burden on their resources, all I am is a black hole where money disappears in. I'm trying to limit myself to one meal a day and i never buy anything for myself, but everyday I wake up wanting to scream. We are in the brink of financial disaster and the landlord is kicking us out after 20 years, and I contribute nothing to the situation.
I want to work but I can barely leave the house without running back into the bathroom to puke. I flunked out of college twice and I'm giving it another try now (free college where i live), but I already only passed 2/7 classes. I'm almost 22 and I haven't even finished a full second semester of college, while my peers are out there with their degrees and already working.
Who is going to hire a 22 year old college student with no prior employment? I can barely talk to someone outside of my mother without wanting to faint. I don't even know how to make a CV, what do I put in there? My high school degree?
I truly believe everything would be better with me gone, and I am SO tired of living on edge everyday. I feel like I'm 85 years old, physically and mentally. I'm a useless NEET leeching off my family and I'm going to disappear one day. I don't want my mother to find me hanging from the closet, ill find a way to acquire some SN and take a long hike to my favorite place in the woods to ctb. I'm sorry to whoever had to read through this crap.
I want to work but I can barely leave the house without running back into the bathroom to puke. I flunked out of college twice and I'm giving it another try now (free college where i live), but I already only passed 2/7 classes. I'm almost 22 and I haven't even finished a full second semester of college, while my peers are out there with their degrees and already working.
Who is going to hire a 22 year old college student with no prior employment? I can barely talk to someone outside of my mother without wanting to faint. I don't even know how to make a CV, what do I put in there? My high school degree?
I truly believe everything would be better with me gone, and I am SO tired of living on edge everyday. I feel like I'm 85 years old, physically and mentally. I'm a useless NEET leeching off my family and I'm going to disappear one day. I don't want my mother to find me hanging from the closet, ill find a way to acquire some SN and take a long hike to my favorite place in the woods to ctb. I'm sorry to whoever had to read through this crap.