21th Century standards of life are insufficient for me. This is why I am going to kill myself.

[deflagrat]

I have been thinking about this for years, but I always end up with the same answer. Why live? Because you are told life is worth it and you believe it (when you are a kid), and because you experience pleasure and you want to repeat that said experience. That's why you slave away everyday, that's why you tolerate life no matter how bad it gets. But why? Every reason to live is fabricated, there is no actual reason to keep living if you don't count what you can come up with (which is invented by you or others). But, in order to see this clearly, you need to experience some sort of depression, or maybe the amount of pleasure that you get from things you would like needs to be severely decreased.

Once this happens, you start to see how pointless life is. Life is a punishment. You don't matter, you just die after some decades and noone will ever remember you existed. There is nothing after that. If you are unlucky, you may even suffer from different illnesses and die earlier than you are supposed to. We, as human beings, have barely scratched the surface with technology, and we (us) won't see any of that because our life spans are very limited. Most of the stuff that will make life worth it doesn't even exist yet, and we will never see it.

We entertain ourselves with low quality content, maybe because there is nothing better. We are supposed to think we are gifted and that we are lucky, yet this is so far from the truth. We are very unlucky.

And we can't escape our fate. I understand not killing yourself when you are in your 20s, but what if you already think you have lived enough? What if life is just repetition of the same things over and over again and you don't want any of those things for you? What if what life offers you is simply not enough? Why do I have to find a job just so I don't live in poverty, if my life is supposed to be precious and important, then why make me a slave for the economy? What's the point of living if we are going to get old and die after awhile, is 40 years of life such a big difference?

I think life is a punishment we have to tolerate. Noone has an actual reason to be alive, it's all made up. In the end it's all irrelevant. I don't think dying for eternity is fair, but I don't think living is fair either. The world would have to change tremendously for me to change my mind, something that is never going to happen. If there is nothing after death, there is no reason to be concerned anymore, I hope I don't come back to this world or something similar to it ever again. Emptiness is scary until you realize how painful existence can be.

I just don't get it. Why am I supposed to live if life doesn't meet my own standards?

Last year I spent the whole year wanting to die, right now I am just waiting until my parents get tired of me (they just accepted the idea of having to care about their 29 year old useless son). I sleep away just so I don't have to be awake. I am tired of waiting, why shouldn't I kill myself?

I am not complaining about my situation, I am just complaining about the fact that there is no point in life. I refuse to work (working is being a slave unless you are getting paid something VERY decent, I am way too disabled to do that), I hate the fact that we live in a prehistoric era (computers are not even half a century old), I hate the fact that I am completely numbed and I don't feel emotions or happiness so not thinking like this is not even possible. I don't care about relationships (I am fugly on the inside anyways), I don't want to have children (to have a kid just to abandon him is a very cruel thing to do), I don't care about anything in this world.

I think I am prepared to die, but how long will I have to live in this shithole called Earth? Years? Should I just sleep all day long until there is a new videogame or show with promise? The only interest left in me is news about technology and that requires time. I would spend the entire day with my computer but I am tired of doing that because I have been doing just that for 10 long years. I am starting to be tired of being bored all day, trying to chase away boredom...

Suicide is a shortcut you take to avoid facing problems. If you don't exist there is no pain or suffering, there is no need to fight or stress yourself. What's in life that makes you want to live? It's all pointless. I could care less about being called a coward or anything else. In the end I want something this life can't provide, and I won't accept "no", I will quit.

I don't really get why other people choose to live. I don't care if "it gets better", I don't want it. I don't seem to be able to make the final choice because many things could go wrong, fuck.

 

[onlyinsleep]

I feel the exact same. If I hadn't been cheated this life though, I might of stuck around and what not just for some fun pleasures. But my parents abuse left me scarred, as well as my illnesses, idiotic doctors, etc. Right now I'm indulging in stuff to hell, as I know it's my last days.

 

[ihatepain]

I can relate to most (not all) of what you said. I truly despise existence. I never wanted to be born. I hate the fact that I have lived this long -- I should have died a long, long time ago. I will never accept what this world has to offer because it is truly of unacceptable quality. My favourite quote is "Sleep is good, death is better; but of course, the best thing would to have never been born at all" because this quote says exactly how I feel about life.

 

[lofistos345]

To live is to suffer. Suffering is what makes us human. Choosing to die is a option that we all shall have a right. I'm in my 40 and will not have children and nothing going on for my life.

 

[woxihuanni]

Have read up to a point. Just that we are not really that precious. Just as animals are not handed food on a plate, we have to work for it as well. It is one thing to say working conditions are not fair, another to think we are too precious for it. That being said, if doing your part in society does not buy what YOU want from life, of course you are the one to decide if it is worth it.

 

[Jean Améry]

I can relate, I really can.

Why live? Because a) you want to or b) because you don't have what it takes to end it. There is no point to living except consuming and reproducing: either of those is pointless since a) when your life comes to an end consumption and pleasure also cease and b) reproduction just creates more misery and humanity will not survive for eternity anyway so it's just staving off the inevitable.

It is said one should live to fulfill one's potential and strive for so called 'peak experiences' but what if one's potential wasn't very high to begin with or it got diminished along the way? Why should we stay alive for that one perfect experience that usually won't last very long? Is it really worth all the pain, effort and dissapointment?

From my own personal experience: working 5 days a week, arriving home exhausted (two hours commute on top of the 8 hours at work), barely having any free time because you have to get enough sleep in order to function the next day and for what really? Only two days off per week is a pretty shitty deal. Especially if you're not one of the few lucky-ones who actually enjoy their work.

Most people don't really enjoy their lives: they just go along with it, conform to others' expectations, numb themselves with mindless TV, alcohol and drugs (legal or otherwise) and social media and don't think about their situation otherwise we would have either a political revolution or a mass suicide-epidemic.

Life really is pretty shitty but in this society if you dare to doubt the optimistic dogma and have the temerity to question the value of life, others and society you are deemed a heretic and branded with the label of mental illness xyz.

If you want to end your life without any danger for anyone else or public disturbance and you're found out you will be prosecuted to the full extent of the law and locked up in a psychiatric prison: that's how 'free' this society really is. You are free to do as you're told: in essence the same freedom you'd enjoy in any dictatorship.

The morons who claim life is precious and suicide is somehow wrong ought to explain a) what the bloody hell they actually mean and b) prove their contentions instead of presenting them as self-evident truths which they are clearly not.

Suicide is a shortcut you take to avoid facing problems. If you don't exist there is no pain or suffering, there is no need to fight or stress yourself.

This seems a self-evident truth to me: unless everything we know about the world is wrong all experience ends with death so both enjoyment (which you won't be able to miss) and pain (it's obvious why this is a good thing) cease to be. 'T is indeed a consumation devoutly to be wished...