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Enlightened
- Apr 8, 2020
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If I had a time machine I would travel back in time to the year 2022 and stay there forever. Everyday I miss the Autumn and Winter of 2022 because it really was the best year of my life.
I was deeply unhappy in my teenage years. I was regularly builled at school even my girl group of friends at school said mean things about me behind my back and at times excluded me from the group. I was always worried about failing exams and being unsuccessful in life. I struggled to fit in anywhere and didn't know what I was good. I used to cut myself so all these feelings can just stop and I had mental breakdowns at school. In my early 20s I became suicidal and dealing with anoxeria and only when I reached 25 years old for a short time I stopped being suicidal because my life was beginning to get to better.
In the autumn season was in Venice exploring attractions, riding the waterbus and water taxi to get to A to B, I had a holiday apartment with a beatuiful balcony view of the Lagoon and I was beginning to feel ready about what I wanted in life which was to study a law masters and then become a lawyer afterwards. Men for the first time began to notice me as a teenager and my 20s I was unattractive only at 25 I began to get pretty.
In Venice is where I truly found myself and felt so alive like never before and then coming back from travelling I have the strongest interview performance ever and got the job. I fell deeply in love with an older man his 50s because he waa the first guy to notice and give me attention while guys my own age always ignored me and never wanted to know me I thought he was a nice guy but he turned out to be two faced man who really caused me lot of pain with his lying and gaslighting while portraying himself to be the "nice guy" and everyone believed him. November that year it was snowing in London and during my lunch break I went to play in the snow. When I was at my local park I just looked to the sky and all I thought is that what people think when they say life is beautiful.
Christmas that year was the best because I bought my family so many gifts with my high salary. I was riding at all time high in my life until everything went wrong last year In 2023 I had the worst New Years Day ever of my life at Heathrow Airport I was so depressed because forced to see my toxic relatives overseas and it was 1 month of choas. So many things kept going wrong while on holiday throughout the month. We even got stranded aboard. After coming back from seeing relatives overseas my life just had things continue to go wrong throughout the year. I got heartbroken by the older guy, I was failing at work which caused me to lose my job. The only good thing I had was getting into my masters programme and I was forced to defer at the minute because of last minute issues regarding tuition fees e
Everything good I had planned for the year ended up not happening and simple things I was good at I was failing at. I went back to abusing laxatives and diet pills again because I wanted to numb all the emotional pain.
Last year December I thought of overdosing because I missed the life I had in 2022 before it went wrong. I have days
Iike today where I feel I will never have those amazing times in my life ever again. 2022 was the best year of my life and I miss it everyday.
I was deeply unhappy in my teenage years. I was regularly builled at school even my girl group of friends at school said mean things about me behind my back and at times excluded me from the group. I was always worried about failing exams and being unsuccessful in life. I struggled to fit in anywhere and didn't know what I was good. I used to cut myself so all these feelings can just stop and I had mental breakdowns at school. In my early 20s I became suicidal and dealing with anoxeria and only when I reached 25 years old for a short time I stopped being suicidal because my life was beginning to get to better.
In the autumn season was in Venice exploring attractions, riding the waterbus and water taxi to get to A to B, I had a holiday apartment with a beatuiful balcony view of the Lagoon and I was beginning to feel ready about what I wanted in life which was to study a law masters and then become a lawyer afterwards. Men for the first time began to notice me as a teenager and my 20s I was unattractive only at 25 I began to get pretty.
In Venice is where I truly found myself and felt so alive like never before and then coming back from travelling I have the strongest interview performance ever and got the job. I fell deeply in love with an older man his 50s because he waa the first guy to notice and give me attention while guys my own age always ignored me and never wanted to know me I thought he was a nice guy but he turned out to be two faced man who really caused me lot of pain with his lying and gaslighting while portraying himself to be the "nice guy" and everyone believed him. November that year it was snowing in London and during my lunch break I went to play in the snow. When I was at my local park I just looked to the sky and all I thought is that what people think when they say life is beautiful.
Christmas that year was the best because I bought my family so many gifts with my high salary. I was riding at all time high in my life until everything went wrong last year In 2023 I had the worst New Years Day ever of my life at Heathrow Airport I was so depressed because forced to see my toxic relatives overseas and it was 1 month of choas. So many things kept going wrong while on holiday throughout the month. We even got stranded aboard. After coming back from seeing relatives overseas my life just had things continue to go wrong throughout the year. I got heartbroken by the older guy, I was failing at work which caused me to lose my job. The only good thing I had was getting into my masters programme and I was forced to defer at the minute because of last minute issues regarding tuition fees e
Everything good I had planned for the year ended up not happening and simple things I was good at I was failing at. I went back to abusing laxatives and diet pills again because I wanted to numb all the emotional pain.
Last year December I thought of overdosing because I missed the life I had in 2022 before it went wrong. I have days
Iike today where I feel I will never have those amazing times in my life ever again. 2022 was the best year of my life and I miss it everyday.
