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[Rotten thing]

Hey there, how are you? Hope you are doing fine.
An hour ago I tied a scarf around my neck hoping to either die or just get near the end so I know what to do to get the job done next time. It was an implase. I couldn't last a minuate with this thing around my neck. I could breath just fine and I didn't mind the pressure feeling nor the fact that I couldn't hear well. Yet I just bailed out so soon. This was my go to method after alot of searching but now I'm just not I'm comfortable going with it again

 

[metalchic_74]

Hey there, how are you? Hope you are doing fine.
An hour ago I tied a scarf around my neck hoping to either die or just get near the end so I know what to do to get the job done next time. It was an implase. I couldn't last a minuate with this thing around my neck. I could breath just fine and I didn't mind the pressure feeling nor the fact that I couldn't hear well. Yet I just bailed out so soon. This was my go to method after alot of searching but now I'm just not I'm comfortable going with it again

I've tried hanging several times and my SI was too strong. Thank god I found this site I ordered SN should be here in a few weeks

 

[Frank]

Plenty of other options out there! Find out what you're comfortable with.

 

[Soul]

I'm sorry about whatever led you to this, and sorry if your experience bewildered you. I think it's not unusual to freak out a bit when testing the waters; our bodies have ancient orders to stop us from dying. Relax, get some rest, think about other things for a while and then contemplate what to do. x

 

[Rotten thing]

I've tried hanging several times and my SI was too strong. Thank god I found this site I ordered SN should be here in a few weeks

I wish I could order SN but I would be arrested. It is illegal where I live as it might be used in making bombs or something.

 

[SinisterKid]

I think you are getting a little confused Rotten. Sodium Nitrate is used in the making of explosives, not sodium NITRITE. SN is a substance that is mainly used as a food additive.

 

[Rotten thing]

I'm sorry about whatever led you to this, and sorry if your experience bewildered you. I think it's not unusual to freak out a bit when testing the waters; our bodies have ancient orders to stop us from dying. Relax, get some rest, think about other things for a while and then contemplate what to do. x

Thanks for your kind words. Really appreciate it :)

 

[flymaybe]

Hey there, how are you? Hope you are doing fine.
An hour ago I tied a scarf around my neck hoping to either die or just get near the end so I know what to do to get the job done next time. It was an implase. I couldn't last a minuate with this thing around my neck. I could breath just fine and I didn't mind the pressure feeling nor the fact that I couldn't hear well. Yet I just bailed out so soon. This was my go to method after alot of searching but now I'm just not I'm comfortable going with it again

I have ordered myself rope two different types and am intending on attempting partial suspension - I've read all the resources that I can and now will just need to put this into practice. I am going to need to have a few glasses of wine to try and help restrict the SI - i have come to terms with dying and I think I would rather chose the way that I am going to go as opposed to any other way.

Just hoping that the few glasses of wine will help me to just go for it. I'm sad to be leaving my partner of 10 years and our dogs but the pressure with work problems has now got too much - for me it is easier for me to exit this way and then he is free to get on with his life.

It could be that because this was done on impulse that is the reason why you are feeling the way you are. I'm not sure as I have not yet got to the point the top will be with me tomorrow. I am anxious, nervous etc.

 

[Rotten thing]

I think you are getting a little confused Rotten. Sodium Nitrate is used in the making of explosives, not sodium NITRITE. SN is a substance that is mainly used as a food additive.

Looks like I need to do some research. Thanks so much for that info I really didn't realise the difference.

I have ordered myself rope two different types and am intending on attempting partial suspension - I've read all the resources that I can and now will just need to put this into practice. I am going to need to have a few glasses of wine to try and help restrict the SI - i have come to terms with dying and I think I would rather chose the way that I am going to go as opposed to any other way.

Just hoping that the few glasses of wine will help me to just go for it. I'm sad to be leaving my partner of 10 years and our dogs but the pressure with work problems has now got too much - for me it is easier for me to exit this way and then he is free to get on with his life.

It could be that because this was done on impulse that is the reason why you are feeling the way you are. I'm not sure as I have not yet got to the point the top will be with me tomorrow. I am anxious, nervous etc.

I hope you find a way to be at peace without having to CTB. If not I wish you have a smooth way out. Hugs

I have ordered myself rope two different types and am intending on attempting partial suspension - I've read all the resources that I can and now will just need to put this into practice. I am going to need to have a few glasses of wine to try and help restrict the SI - i have come to terms with dying and I think I would rather chose the way that I am going to go as opposed to any other way.

Just hoping that the few glasses of wine will help me to just go for it. I'm sad to be leaving my partner of 10 years and our dogs but the pressure with work problems has now got too much - for me it is easier for me to exit this way and then he is free to get on with his life.

It could be that because this was done on impulse that is the reason why you are feeling the way you are. I'm not sure as I have not yet got to the point the top will be with me tomorrow. I am anxious, nervous etc.

I hope you find a way to be at peace without having to CTB. If not I wish you have a smooth way out. Hugs

 

[flymaybe]

Looks like I need to do some research. Thanks so much for that info I really didn't realise the difference.

There is a whole thread on here about it hopefully this is the link Hanging Mega Thread

I have also searched on this group etc.

Looks like I need to do some research. Thanks so much for that info I really didn't realise the difference.

I hope you find a way to be at peace without having to CTB. If not I wish you have a smooth way out. Hugs

I hope you find a way to be at peace without having to CTB. If not I wish you have a smooth way out. Hugs

Thank you - unforunatley I don't see any other way to be at peace than CTB, this is something that i have been considering for the last few weeks and is the only way that I can see out. I don't have the fight in me the company we both work for have no cares for their staff at all and are more than happy to get rid etc. My only hope is that this may give some others hope and for others considering to join this company to give them the heads up. I have already distanced myself from my work friends and won't contact them now - at the moment I am still off on full pay not that this matters. There has been no support offered to me from the company at all and in all my years of flying this is the worst company that I have ever worked for.

I won't socialise with work colleagues now as a result and would rather just be at home - it goes to show that the people you work with all the time and think of as your friends you can only really count them on one hand.

I am going to have to have a few glasses of wine / bottle to take away the SI, this is something that has been on my find fully now for the last week and I wake up thinking about it. My partner has seen how this has affected me but I am nw just trying to put a front on for his part without discussing matters etc.

 

[Rotten thing]

There is a whole thread on here about it hopefully this is the link Hanging Mega Thread

I have also searched on this group etc.



Thank you - unforunatley I don't see any other way to be at peace than CTB, this is something that i have been considering for the last few weeks and is the only way that I can see out. I don't have the fight in me the company we both work for have no cares for their staff at all and are more than happy to get rid etc. My only hope is that this may give some others hope and for others considering to join this company to give them the heads up. I have already distanced myself from my work friends and won't contact them now - at the moment I am still off on full pay not that this matters. There has been no support offered to me from the company at all and in all my years of flying this is the worst company that I have ever worked for.

I won't socialise with work colleagues now as a result and would rather just be at home - it goes to show that the people you work with all the time and think of as your friends you can only really count them on one hand.

I am going to have to have a few glasses of wine / bottle to take away the SI, this is something that has been on my find fully now for the last week and I wake up thinking about it. My partner has seen how this has affected me but I am nw just trying to put a front on for his part without discussing matters etc.

Have you thought about maybe trying to work for another company? or just taking a sort of long vacation to try to find out what works best for you?
I really hope you find a way out of this pain other than ctb. Maybe try to talk to your partner about your struggle, it could help you find a way to feel better.