20 Days Left Till Euthanasia

[plzoffme]

The days are counting down and as they do I am losing my human emotions. I have made several half hearted attempts at ending my life over the years mainly via (Hanging). I found the method of which you do CTB matters a lot to the person who is trying to CTB. I own a gun and have tired that method but to much fear to pull the trigger. I have drove to high structures but could not get past SI to jump. I have tried to OD on pills which would have been successful had someone not saved me :(. Its crazy how much planning goes into trying to CTB the correct way. Things like location, time, method, and what day all play a factor. Some people can pick up a gun and blow their brains out no issues, while others could never get past SI with that method :( Each person is different in this way and for me I have had to find what causes the least SI. Personally, I am going to OD on a substance 10x stronger then Fentanyl and luckily my brain is not afraid of this method lol. I see why a lot of people on this forum choose SN as a method because its less scary and its peaceful. Anyway, I am happy I get to spend the last of my days on here reading all of your stories and I have found comfort that I am not alone. I am still working out if I should CTB in a hotel room or out in nature. Anyway, just felt like typing something out for today. I hope all of you find your peace & ill make a post the night I plan to CTB documenting the whole thing.

 

[enough of this]

The days are counting down and as they do I am losing my human emotions. I have made several half hearted attempts at ending my life over the years mainly via (Hanging). I found the method of which you do CTB matters a lot to the person who is trying to CTB. I own a gun and have tired that method but to much fear to pull the trigger. I have drove to high structures but could not get past SI to jump. I have tried to OD on pills which would have been successful had someone not saved me :(. Its crazy how much planning goes into trying to CTB the correct way. Things like location, time, method, and what day all play a factor. Some people can pick up a gun and blow their brains out no issues, while others could never get past SI with that method :( Each person is different in this way and for me I have had to find what causes the least SI. Personally, I am going to OD on a substance 10x stronger then Fentanyl and luckily my brain is not afraid of this method lol. I see why a lot of people on this forum choose SN as a method because its less scary and its peaceful. Anyway, I am happy I get to spend the last of my days on here reading all of your stories and I have found comfort that I am not alone. I am still working out if I should CTB in a hotel room or out in nature. Anyway, just felt like typing something out for today. I hope all of you find your peace & ill make a post the night I plan to CTB documenting the whole thing.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

how many grams or miligrams and what way snorting , injecting , drinking?

 

[plzoffme]

how many grams or miligrams and what way snorting , injecting , drinking?

its 1 gram but this stuff is POTENT! High tolerance users take 10-20 UGs not even MGS.... i plan on swallowing the whole gram...

 

[Traveller12724]

You're right I have always found it fascinating how some methods are bearable to some people but not others, for example I couldn't pull off hanging or jumping but sn sounds pretty good and bearable to me so that's how I am going out. Only a mere months and I am on the way, it was good to read your post fellow traveler, best of luck to you!!

 

[maniac116]

The days are counting down and as they do I am losing my human emotions. I have made several half hearted attempts at ending my life over the years mainly via (Hanging). I found the method of which you do CTB matters a lot to the person who is trying to CTB. I own a gun and have tired that method but to much fear to pull the trigger. I have drove to high structures but could not get past SI to jump. I have tried to OD on pills which would have been successful had someone not saved me :(. Its crazy how much planning goes into trying to CTB the correct way. Things like location, time, method, and what day all play a factor. Some people can pick up a gun and blow their brains out no issues, while others could never get past SI with that method :( Each person is different in this way and for me I have had to find what causes the least SI. Personally, I am going to OD on a substance 10x stronger then Fentanyl and luckily my brain is not afraid of this method lol. I see why a lot of people on this forum choose SN as a method because its less scary and its peaceful. Anyway, I am happy I get to spend the last of my days on here reading all of your stories and I have found comfort that I am not alone. I am still working out if I should CTB in a hotel room or out in nature. Anyway, just felt like typing something out for today. I hope all of you find your peace & ill make a post the night I plan to CTB documenting the whole thing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[cait_sith]

Hi, Can you say name of the substance?

 

[plzoffme]

Hi, Can you say name of the substance?

its called Isotonitazene

 

[2muchpain2]

if you were to ctb in nature would you just take the pills outside somewhere and hope no one finds you? Or would you set up camp and those kinds of things?

 

[fuyuu]

just curious, do you happen to know how long it'll take to work? and i wish u a peaceful journey <3

 

[plzoffme]

just curious, do you happen to know how long it'll take to work? and i wish u a peaceful journey <3

works instantly

 

[Malfunction]

I'd gladly take a firearm lol.

Seriously though, I hope you find peace my friend.

 

[Raindancer]

Nature sounds nice, that would be my first choice. I would like to go either in a forest or on a deserted beach. It's funny, I came here never understanding how difficult finding a method would be. I hope your last days are filled with peace, and thank you again.

 

[HopeNotLong]

I hope you find peace. I will be desperately waiting for my day..

 

[plzoffme]

if you were to ctb in nature would you just take the pills outside somewhere and hope no one finds you? Or would you set up camp and those kinds of things?

Hard to say, I would def need to be somewhere that people do not go often, like off a trail or something.

if you were to ctb in nature would you just take the pills outside somewhere and hope no one finds you? Or would you set up camp and those kinds of things?

Hard to say, I would def need to be somewhere that people do not go often, like off a trail or something. A hotel room would be better because I would not be bothered for at least 8 hours.

I'd gladly take a firearm lol.

Seriously though, I hope you find peace my friend.

I tried man.... I tried so many times but SI just will not let me pull the trigger + there is a chance of survival.

 

[idiotmother]

Was it hard to source?

 

[plzoffme]

Was it hard to source?

no very easy

 

[idiotmother]

no very easy

Do you have any idea how the dying process is with it? Like is it peaceful?

 

[gameoverman]

You Americans have it so good: easy access to firearms and opioids. Meanwhile the only options for CTB I have in my European shithole are hanging and SN which both suck.