Today is my birthday. I realise I've been longer here than I wanted to be and I always have excuses. At first there was my mum (who passed away in 2022), but right now it's my boyfriend. I don't know why I'm still here. I really want all this to end. I'm just tired But maybe I'm a little coward. You wouldn't know if you spoke to me because I'm super bubbly and excited about every little thing. But in reality I'm just so useless and so selfish; I'm a little out of touch. I wish I could end it all. I really hate myself.
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euROPE
- Sep 10, 2018
- 1,654
Happy birthday!
Sorry about your mom!
People who feel selfish seldom are selfish. Selfish people don't usually criticize themselves.HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
You are NEVER useless ever, as you are a good-hearted soul.
Hope that you have a wonderful day, you deserve some good timesand relaxation.
Walter
FadingSnowFake
Enlightened
- Nov 25, 2024
- 1,610
Happy birthday! I don't believe you are a coward, you are brave for being here and making it another year. It sounds to me like you are a humble person, in thinking of others and also kind for being there for others. But you also need to believe in yourself and be kind to yourself. I hope that you can allow yourself the same love you as you give to others, because you deserve to be loved. Since you are tired, I hope that you can also give yourself a well-deserved break to relax, rest and find calmness within.Thank you for your kind words. I wish I had the words to articulate my thoughts properly. What I can say is; You're are all too kind.Similar threads
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