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nihilbat
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- Dec 17, 2022
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I absolutely despise the fact that I'm still alive, especially during this time of the year. While most people are celebrating, spending time with the ones they like and etc, I'm having to deal with the trauma of a violent rape, of having to hear from my family how i'm their biggest and only regret, how everyone would be better without me. And it's being exhausting to even continue waking up.
I planned a lot of times what I could do to end this, did some tests before really trying, but when it's for real, I always give up, I'm too scared of things not working and I being stuck in here in an even worse situation.
Worst part to me is having to hear from others that they know what I'm going through, that they know things will get better, or any of those positive things. But then, whenever I ask, noone can give me even 1 reason as to why things would get any better...
I planned a lot of times what I could do to end this, did some tests before really trying, but when it's for real, I always give up, I'm too scared of things not working and I being stuck in here in an even worse situation.
Worst part to me is having to hear from others that they know what I'm going through, that they know things will get better, or any of those positive things. But then, whenever I ask, noone can give me even 1 reason as to why things would get any better...